splitmemory | can you keep a secret

To think of Malleus as a child would be a terrible disservice to him, to who he was becoming and growing into. Malleus was a grown man, with his own feelings, thoughts. His own views on the world, which would continue to grow with him, as Lilia's had. The feelings he had for Malleus, well... those might not be platonic either, in such a complicated way. It was hard to place.

They didn't need to open up those feelings, those boxes, to identify and understand them. Not today.

Thank the Thorn Fairy that Malleus begins to calm, that his tension begins to drain even a little. Lilia's hand stays against his head for a moment longer, fingers playing with the Prince's hair.

"Absolutely I will. No matter what anyone else says or thinks. Even as our roles change, I will be by your side." That, he knows, is a lie. One day, he will need to leave Malleus. That day wouldn't come anytime soon, he's sure. "That simply means I can continue to teach you. Besides, Malleus..."

"Even I don't know everything. Have you forgotten how different I was when you were small? The ways I've changed, learned, grown? It's been so long since then. We've both so much to learn, so much to see."

Their roles. Was it possible for roles to change as drastically as Malleus suspects he might want? He thinks of the kiss earlier, and of how Lilia's hips had felt against his own. And again, Lilia mentions when Malleus was small, though it is true that the Lilia now is distinct from the Lilia then.

Malleus suddenly looks rather sullen, though he tries to shake it off.

"It is rather unfair of you to continue to mention the time when I was small." Embarrassing, even, and it makes Malleus feel worse about the way his body had reacted earlier.

Malleus had a point - he shouldn't keep bringing that up, after the reaction both of their bodies had. With a small laugh, Lilia shakes his head, as if to brush off that sullen feeling that sinks in to his ward.

"It is, it is. I was simply trying to remind you of how I've changed. I may be the same Lilia who was the General of the Right, but I certainly don't act the same as him."

Lilia moves both of his hands down to cup both of Malleus' cheeks, smiling down at him. "I'll stop bringing it up. Promise, promise!" They're so close again - it's just how Lilia was, constantly getting so close without even thinking.

Malleus has something else to say, but it suddenly seems unimportant. Lilia's hands feel nice, and they are close... He likes when they're close. If they could be as close as they were when Malleus was small, he would be very pleased indeed. But wasn't it he who wanted to stop bringing up when he was small? It certainly isn't appropriate, not given the... reaction he's had.

His face feels slightly warm as this thoughts slip back to that. Lilia had offered to help, but what did that mean? Malleus could spend hours spiraling, trying to figure it out. Instead, he tries to ignore it, though he does lift his hands to press them over the tops of Lilia's, as if to keep him there.

"You seem... happy." With his silly little computer games, and his club. Malleus does not mind Lilia branching out, and knows he ought to do it too, but it's hard. And he does get... jealous. A little.

There's not a lot more important than being close to those that he cared about. For Lilia, this was the most important, no matter how flighty he might be, no matter how careless he could be when it came to the emotions of those around him.

One of Lilia's thumbs carefully caress Malleus' cheek, as Malleus' own hands come to rest over the top of his. It was a comfortable position, one that felt both new and nostalgic all at once. Why did it feel new, if being close wasn't new for them? Was it the warmth to Malleus' face, maybe? The small conversation they'd just had, that almost turned into a fight, a tantrum? Did it matter?

Instead, he focused his attention on Malleus, expression soft as he smiles at him, "I am. I've made plenty of new friends, experienced so many things that I could have never dreamed of experiencing in a school setting." Lilia goes on for a moment, before leaning in and gently bumping his forehead against Malleus'.

"To top it all off, I'm happy to be here with you all. With Silver and Sebek, of course, but you most of all, Malleus."

Edited 2024-06-02 18:03 (UTC)

This is nice. It makes Malleus' chest ache, but it's not in an unpleasant way. It feels full, like he wants to preserve this moment forever; he feels that about a lot of things lately, but particularly these moments with Lilia. The embarrassment of earlier has faded, along with any anger or petulance.

Malleus bumps his forehead back against Lilia's; it's something that makes him feel nostalgic. Sometimes, though, he wishes things between them weren't so... familial. But surely that is the way he remains in Lilia's mind, given how often his childhood is brought up. Maybe he really is still just a child to Lilia.

Malleus exhales. Maybe they will just never speak of this again. It was a fluke. Seven only know what those 'energy drinks' do to people.

What use was it, preserving moments, when you could experience so many more? Moments like this never lasted forever. Neither would the memories they form in their minds. Everything eventually fades. Despite this, Lilia would hold on for as long as he could, to the moments, to the memories, until he couldn't anymore.

Maybe that's why he's to focused on Malleus at this moment, keeping his gaze firmly locked onto him. Shifting one hand down, away from his cheek, it moves along the boy's jaw, lithe fingers tracing the bone as they travel further down until he can rest his hand against the back of Malleus' neck. Each movement is slow, purposeful, even if his thoughts are unreadable within his gaze.

"Stay the night with me," Lilia breaks the calm silence with one statement, "I planned to head into town on my own come morning. You should accompany me." It is a request, no matter how much Lilia makes it sound like he's already decided Malleus would accept.

"If you stay here, it'll be easy for me to know when you've woken up. I would hate to wake you for something so trivial."

Malleus does not move; he sits still under the touch of Lilia's hand, again wishing it was something he could preserve. He is both tempted to close his eyes, to better focus on the sensation, and to continue watching Lilia just like he is, solemn and unblinking. Malleus wonders what he is thinking; he could ask, but there is no guarantee Lilia would speak the truth.

When he does speak, though, Malleus' mouth drops open slightly in surprise.

It is a request, yes, but Malleus would never think of turning it down. Lilia must know this, from the way he says it. Malleus wants nothing more than to stay here, to share Lilia's bed- even though there is a nagging feeling at the back of his mind that he should decline. Especially after... this little incident.

He is silent just a moment longer.

"Very well. It would allow me to be sure you stop playing your silly game." Malleus says it as though he is doing Lilia a favor by staying the night, even though he's secretly quite pleased about the invitation.

The surprise was expected. When wasn't he amused by shocking or surprising others? Still, there's something about the way Malleus looks at him, the silence that stays for just a little longer, as Malleus thinks it over.

Is Malleus thinking it over? Was it something that required that much thought?

Lilia gets his answer, the answer he knew he'd get easily. It's then that his hands finally pull back from Malleus, even if the man might protest, might want his hands to stay longer, might try to pull them back down to rest against him again. Closing his eyes for a brief second, Lilia nods, taking that answer. His forehead nudges Malleus' once more before he pulls back all the way, shifting back from the desk.

"Just for you, I'll stop playing early. My Lord, keeping you up even later than this would be akin to a crime, would it not?"

He needs to get changed, then clean up that mess of the spilled energy drink on the floor. Slipping his jacket off, he sets the material aside, not seeming to care to ask Malleus to turn around while he changes from his uniform into something more simple. When he's half undressed from the hips up, he glances over towards Malleus.

"Would you mind grabbing a rag, Malleus? I'll clean up the mess, then we can lie down."

So, they will just not talk about their little... bout of excitement. Malleus is fine with that, even though it nags at the back of his mind, the way it had felt to have Lilia press against him, and the offer to help-

No, he's not thinking about that. He focuses instead on the warmth and the nostalgia of that forehead-touch. Things will stay the same, Malleus tells himself, and he is more than happy with that.

"I would prefer the two of us get ample rest for school tomorrow." Though time in Briar Valley moves quite differently than here, and Lilia is the sort to be awake in the night... as is Malleus, if his late-night walks are anything to take into consideration.

Even though he is not asked, Malleus politely averts his gaze, only glancing back when he is asked to fetch a rag. He doesn't bother offering to clean the mess himself, because the thought does not even cross his mind. Instead, he looks around for a bit of cloth that might suffice - a crumpled hand-towel will do, yes? - and offers it out to Lilia, still not looking directly at him.

Things might stay the same... but there was the ever present excitement and arousal that had become a topic between them for a brief time. It wouldn't fall that easily to the sides, never to be spoken of again. No, it was bound to come right back at them.

It's with a small smile that Lilia responds, "Tomorrow we do not have school, Malleus. Tonight is Friday, tomorrow will be Saturday. I would not invite you out to the city on a school day, for I know attending your classes is of the utmost importance." Lilia tells Malleus, keeping his tone even. No scolding, no teasing even of the gentle variety. Simple facts.

With that, he slips his shorts and tights off, going about undressing the rest of the way. All he ends up pulling overhead is an oversized tee-shirt, leaving him only in his boxers and that.

By that time, Malleus is holding out the hand-towel. Lilia takes it, chuckling softly, "I'm decent, you can look now." There it was, a hint of the teasing. Shifting over to the mess, Lilia kneels down onto the ground, beginning to dab up the spill.

Unfortunately, Malleus is very much the sort of person who enjoys things staying the same, so he puts it to the back of his mind, classified as 'unimportant'. He is reminded that they don't have school tomorrow- it truly is difficult to understand the flow of time here. Hm. Even a day off seems to go by in a blink, though Malleus appreciates the time given for students to further their bonds and hobbies- or he would, if anyone ever bothered to spend time with him.

But no matter; Lilia is willing to spend time with him tomorrow, and that pleases Malleus more than anything.

Again, he averts his eyes as Lilia finishes undressing, and when he looks back, there is a slightly disgruntled look at just what Lilia is deigning to wear to bed.

Now, it isn't the first time Malleus has seen it, but he never stops finding such casual clothing - or lack thereof - strange when it's on Lilia. Perhaps it is comfortable... but would it not get drafty in a big castle? It seems impractical, to say the least.

"I do not consider that decent, but as you wish. I will retrieve my own sleeping clothes."

It was no problem that Malleus forgot. That was why Lilia was here, to keep him on track, to keep him focused when things come up that might get filed away as 'unimportant'. Sure, that may not be the only reason, but it was one that Lilia focused very closely on, with how Malleus could be.

Oh, that look... how it always amused him. Lilia wants to squish his face, to push his hair back and press a kiss to his forehead, to press their foreheads together and laugh together over how silly the both of them were. He knows better than to comment on that look unless Malleus comments on his dress.

There it is, the comment he was expecting.

Shooting a grin towards him, Lilia allows his tongue to stick out briefly towards him. "What, I'm covered." Lilia clearly knows exactly why Malleus thinks this, of course. Who better to understand Malleus than him, after all.

The spill is easily dabbed up with the little crumpled hand towel. In less than a second, Lilia's back to his feet, wandering over to where a small laundry bin lies hidden beside his wardrobe. The towel is placed within, and Lilia wanders back over towards Malleus, patting his arm lightly.

"Go, go. I would offer to share clothes, but alas... you wouldn't want to wear only a shirt to bed, hmm? I'll be waiting for you! Make sure you come back, or I'm not sure I will sleep at all tonight."

Would Malleus take that joke too seriously? Probably.

No, absolutely not. Malleus would never wear only a shirt to bed, particularly not when sharing a bed with Lilia. That would be utterly inappropriate, and he will not think on it any longer. Malleus gives Lilia another look, scandalized, when he suggests not sleeping at all.

Yes, he took it seriously.

"I will be back shortly. In the meantime, you should prepare yourself to be comfortable." Get ready for bed, in other words. Malleus turns and sweeps out of the room, as he does, to retrieve his own nighttime garments.

"I will, I will!" Lilia laughs quietly to himself as soon as Malleus is out of the room. What a cute face that was that he'd made, so very upset at the idea that Lilia would threaten his own sleep as a weapon against Malleus.

While waiting, Lilia shifts towards his own bed, removing his bass from where it sat there. Carefully setting it into his stand, he prepares the bed for them both, pulling the blanket back to make it more ready for the both of them.

With that done, he really didn't have all that much left to do to prepare for bed. He sits himself down, finger combing his hair as he waits for Malleus to return.

Back home, Malleus' sleepwear consists of very old-fashioned nightshifts, but here, he has been given a rather charming pair of pajamas. It is... probably best that he be fully dressed in Lilia's bed anyway, after that little chair incident, which Malleus is not thinking about as he changes in his own dorm, uniform folded neatly aside. He takes his pillow, and... no, this is fine. Malleus does not need to steel himself for anything; it is just Lilia, and they have slept aside one another in the past. Nothing strange about this at all.

When he returns, he is ready for bed, and pleased to see that Lilia is right where he left him.

"Will your bed fit two people?" Malleus looks at it a bit dubiously; it was not rare for them to share a bed in the past, but he was much, much smaller then. On the other hand, Lilia has not grown much... has he grown at all?

Perhaps Malleus ought to stop looking at him so closely.

Lilia looks up to Malleus as the door opens once more, his hand falling from his hair to instead rest in his lap. Those pajamas were utterly adorable, every single time that Lilia saw him in them all he wanted to do was scoop Malleus into his arms and press little kisses to his face, to tell him cute he looked. Instead of doing that and embarrassing the poor prince, Lilia just shifts to make room on the bed, squirming over to the side near the wall.

"It should. I barely fit in half of it myself. If we need to, we can press a little close, can't we? I'm sure it will be fine." Patting the bed lightly, Lilia assesses their room situation....

Yeah, this would do nicely.

Flopping down onto his side, Lilia reaches both of his hands out towards Malleus, "Come on, don't keep me waiting!"

It is certainly a good thing Lilia doesn't act on those urges, because it would put Malleus in a mood, and nobody needs that. He thinks the pajamas are rather charming - they were a gift - and a good deal less drafty than what he is used to sleeping in. Much better than Lilia's... shorts.

Looking dubiously at the bed, Malleus still does not hesitate to sit down. He is... tall, which is most of the problem. His pillow accommodates his horns, at least, and he is not a rough sleeper; once in a comfortable position, Malleus rarely moves throughout the night.

He avoids Lilia's outstretched hands when he lays down.

"I am only doing this to ensure you get a proper night's rest." Malleus shifts his head to look over at Lilia. This feels vaguely nostalgic, which settles restless nerves a bit. He is quickly putting the earlier situation out of his mind.

The bed would manage to accommodate both of them. After all, even with Lilia's size, all the dorm beds were generally the same sizing... mostly. Malleus would be able to get comfortable enough on the bed, where Lilia really was a little smaller than the bed's sizing allowed.

Malleus avoiding his hands doesn't stop Lilia from scooting closer, one of his hands worming around to rest over Malleus, easily settling around his waist. With his strength, it's easy for Lilia to pull Malleus in closer, not seeming to care whether Malleus would struggle against the hold or not, to refuse cuddling up with him.

"Are you really that worried? I sleep enough," Is that really true, when he spends most of his nights staying up so late that on occasion he has to use his magic to make sure he's on time to morning classes? "And you were awake too, you know." He adds, already shifting and squirming to move one of his legs over one of Malleus'.

... It's a good thing Malleus is used to how touchy and easy Lilia can be with regards to touch. Even this... would it be too much, after the earlier situation? Lilia didn't think about it, didn't give it a single thought.

Ah... he is going to insist on cuddling, isn't he? Malleus isn't unused to this, but with what happened earlier - and how he is trying very hard to forget - it feels more awkward than usual. Besides, it's not something they do as often, now that he's grown. Still, arguing with Lilia is difficult, and despite his size, he is incredibly strong; Malleus only squirms a little, knowing that once Lilia has decided something, it's nigh impossible to change his mind.

"Of course I'm worried. It is my duty to make certain-" Oh... does he really have to cling like that? "The bed really isn't that tight. You can give me some space."

Opposed to Malleus, Lilia is like... a starfish. He stretches out and clings to what he finds, as though there is no issue in it at all. And there might not have been in the past, but now? Now, Malleus is a grown young man! He is used to sleeping on his own, and does not need to know how it feels to have Lilia's limbs intertwined with his in a bed.

That's right - Lilia wasn't going to change his mind, no matter how much Malleus might squirm or complain or demand that he give him space. His arm is comfortable where it's at now, fingers playing with the fabric of Malleus' shirt, tracing the fabric along his waist. His touch is gentle, yet careless of how Malleus might be feeling from earlier's events.

His leg, too, stays put, and he tucks his heel carefully under Malleus' leg, pressing himself completely against Malleus now. "I could, but…"

"When was the last time I was able to hold you? I've really only ever slept best when I was able to be sure you were safe in my arms, you know." Lilia mentions, as he presses his cheek against Malleus' arm.

"...." Oh, that statement finally processed. "What do you mean it's your duty? To make certain of what?"

Edited 2024-07-07 18:43 (UTC)

They are... too close. Malleus tries not to think about it, but it is harder than he'd anticipated. Why does Lilia have to be so unashamedly clingy?

"You keep speaking as though I am a child." Malleus sounds more than a little petulant when he points this out, struggling with nostalgia and something he certainly should not be feeling. "I am grown now," mostly, "And it is my turn to look out for you."

He's... made this up in his head, sort of, but should a ruler not look out for his subjects? Even if Lilia's job is to look after him, Malleus feels as though he owes it to the man who has known him his whole life, and whom he cares for very much. He would feel just as protective of Sebek and Silver, but. Well, it's also different.

Ahem.

Malleus is not a child, not anymore. That was something Lilia knew well, something he would even insist to others who may believe otherwise. He understood why Malleus would be annoyed by it, even if he was jumping to conclusions assuming what Lilia felt about him.

"I do not see you as a child, Malleus. You are very much grown. Even if you still have much to experience, I know this to be a fact," Oh, but how sweet was that? Malleus wanted to look out for him in the same way he'd always done for him.

Turning his head, Lilia presses a careful kiss against Malleus' arm, where his cheek had rest before. How could he not be weak to such a sweet declaration?

"Is that how you see it? Hm..." Another shift, another squirming, and Lilia's leaning up to look Malleus in the face. It's a far less aggressive motion than the earlier attacks, a softer look on the smaller fae's face. "It has been a very long time since another person as looked out for me."

Maybe one small relief would be the way his one hand shifts back, freeing Malleus from some of the clinging... until that same hand is brought to Malleus' face to tuck some of his hair behind his pointed ear.

"I can accept this... as long as you allow me to continue looking out for you, as I've always done. Your life is yours to make how you wish. I would never dream of changing your mind, if you wish to look out for me as well."

Malleus cannot help the way his face warms. It's a strange feeling indeed, one that seems to happen most often around Lilia... to say nothing of the incident earlier, which he would frankly rather die than think about. At the very least, it seems Lilia is willing to acknowledge that Malleus has grown, although the way he tucks hair behind his ear is both frustratingly familial, and something else.

Why does it bother Malleus so much? They are family. He does not hate it, not in the least, but...

Ah well. He pushes that aside. Lilia is relenting, compromising, and it makes his heart flutter in his chest. He has always been the best at appeasing Malleus, when he wants to. There is a smile that slowly settles on Malleus' face, a feeling of relief that this is not being denied.

"You have been by my side as long as I can remember. I know I will not be able to change your mind just as much as you cannot change mine."

He does not need to be looked out for, but that is Lilia's job... It's just that Malleus hopes that is not all it is for him.

Whatever they were, both now and in the future, would rely solely on what Malleus decides they are. It is unlikely that Lilia would change their relationship or adjust it in any way without Malleus' input. That moment they'd had earlier, that little incident... if Malleus really wanted to forget about it, then they would. Simple as that.

Lilia's fingertips brush across Malleus' cheek as they fall from where they'd tucked his hair back, hand slowly making it's way down. His fingers rest gently under the prince's chin, his thumb coming up to lightly trace along Malleus' bottom lip.

"I much prefer seeing you smile, My Lord. If it means that I can see you smile even more, then I will stubbornly stay by your side. No one will be able to separate us."

Oh, that little flush to his cheeks was just adorable as well...! How was he supposed to handle such cuteness?

Shifting again, he leans up, in, pressing a quick kiss to his cheek.

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